March 5 2014

March 5 2014

When my sweetheart raises his voice and goes on what I call a tangent, how do I stay in centered and calm so I can access divinity and the right answer and not be unseated emotionally? This is a challenge for me. My body got all tense, my heart started to close down, I feel like a little child getting punished, (dad issues) and I just want the tirade to stop. Boundaries, yes. Maybe I need to say, If you want to talk to me about this issue, we need to talk about it without getting so emotional so we can resolve the problem like two adults.

I know that the deeper issue was about money and maybe I needed to acknowledge his fears, name them so that he felt heard. I just FROZE!!!

Dear God,

Please help me attain that balance, grace, and protection so that I can be directed by divinity. Please help me see why I am becoming so emotional so that I may be able to release that pattern, resolve it and continue working toward my souls highest good and truth. You used to use your emotions as a tool to get your own way because you didn't want to admit the real truth. You are handling these things better than you used to. You admitted the truth the next day to the person who was venting. Keep on keeping on and remember you are never alone. I will get a plan of action, a mantra, call for help, breathe slower, etc. so that I can remain calm and access the divine. We are here for you, ask for our love and wisdom in the next circumstance and we will download it to you. We want your souls highest truth to be know to you and others. We are your champion. Me is loved, me is lover, me loves.

I ask all this for myself, my sweetheart, my family, my friends, all whom I come in contact with today and the whole world according to God's Holy Will. Amen.