Jan. 26th 2014

Jan. 26 2014

This morning I made my sweetheart his coffee, turned on the heater and got his Sunday Morning show started. Then he started a disagreement and started what I call mud slinging...it's like hitting below the belt. I usually retaliate with a defensive mud slinging myself. This time I had some grace and in the end diffused the situation without mud slinging back (ok maybe one or two comments) but I stayed calmer and could think this time. That means listening to what the other person is really saying without reacting or having your buttons pushed. Difficult at times but possible. As soon as you start taking it as a personal attack, ironically it is in a sense because it attacks your ego, then all is toast, burnt toast without even the butter to make it taste better.

Now the real trick is, after so many years of trying to learn how to be calmer and respond in an adult fashion, is not to feel superior in the situation after the fact. You know, smug, I'm better than him/her, I would never act like that, etc.

The person is actually teaching you to be a better person by their behavior and you are teaching them. Isn't this what we want? People acting like adults, speaking from our hearts. I have a way's to go. I was still shaking and superior thoughts crossed my mind but today was a step forward. One under my belt, knowing that I can do it again and again. One day....:)

Dear God,

I pray for wholeness in every aspect, physical, emotional, mental and spiritual. Thank you for letting me remain clearer today in the midst of hurtful comments so that I may start responding more from my heart then from my pain. Remove all past hurts and pains from my consciousness being and world and replace them with the Christ Consciousness and the healing balm of Gilead. Help me to be Christ in action for myself, my sweetheart, my family, all whom I come in contact with today and the whole world. Not my will but thine be done. Amen.