Last night one of my prayers were answered. I let my heart open and had a conversation with my boyfriend. I was honest about my feelings. Being vulnerable is so scary yet so rewarding. No emotional blackmail, no games, no tit for tat, no withholding my love and the list can go on. I did ask him that I needed to not be judged to feel safe opening up. He did honor that. I realized that I want a relationship based on honor and respect. I'm not sure yet how or what that journey will look like but know that it has to start with ME.
I want to honor and respect myself first, so that we can create healthy boundaries, have a direction that we want this relationship to head in and the self discipline to stick to it. I want to make a plan of how we are going to achieve this as this will help us stick to our plan. I want the compassion and wisdom to understand each other and be patient with each others humaness. We need to support and pick each other up on this journey towards wholeness. We need to have the end vision in mind. The prize at the end of the rainbow. The beautiful outcome that embraces us in divine love.
Dear God,
Thank you, thank you, thank you for the gift of opening my heart just a bit last night and for the insights. Please help me on my journey of wholeness physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. I ask all this for myself, my boyfriend, my friends, my family, all whom I come in contact with today and the world.
Not my will but thine be done.
Note to self: Start creating the outline of the blueprint for our relationship and then sit down with my boyfriend and work on it together. As we make it our own, so will our relationship evolve.
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